Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in Corey Schue's LiveJournal:

Sunday, February 27th, 2005
5:00 pm	Fun Times... So I went to church today. No fun to be had there. Still in a horrible mood. Still depressed, so I guess it's a normal day. Maybe I'll go hang with some friends tonight to try and break the monotoney of my normal, shitty life. EDIT You scored as Loner. </td> Loner 100% Goth 63% Geek 50% Drama nerd 44% Stoner 38% Punk/Rebel 25% Ghetto gangsta 25% Prep/Jock/Cheerleader 19% What's Your High School Stereotype? created with QuizFarm.com</tr> Current Mood: pessimistic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:22 am	I've lost it all.... The Ataris - Bad Case of Broken Heart "Today I'm missing something in this small new england town. Here's to you my best friend. Just wanted to say that I miss having you around. I'm staring at your picture and dreaming that I could hold your hand. We'd walk down to the ocean and I would write your name in the sand. They say sometimes you need some time apart but I've got a bad case of broken heart. And you're the only one who's got the cure. And I can't live another day without seeing you smile. 2000 miles between us and I guess that I'm the one to blame. Relationships and heartaches, these two things are one and the same. The radio plays a love song. I smash my fist right through the dial. Here's to the broken hearted. A generation born in denial." God I miss her.... Current Mood: ...again (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 25th, 2005
10:51 pm	So now I'm angry... Well, I've pretty much been pissed at the world today, really for no apparent reason. This is quite possibly the third stage of the "Losing the One You Love" process. So far I've had crying, depression, and now anger. I really just have been down and out this whole day, and I fear it will last the better of the next couple of weeks. I just feel all around horrible. Every time I stop and think, my brain happens upon a place where it doesn't need to be, thinking about a certain someone that it shouldn't be. But I guess this is life. Nothing better than to just keep your chin down and admit defeat ;) Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
4:58 am	Interesting theory on love.... "i was in love- still am- and it has made me so vulnerable im scared of myself...it is weird how something so great can turn and be so bad in the span of oh say a few hours or few seconds or whatever fucking time span you get during which you realize it is not working how you want it to and that well its over...or on the other persons behalf they say its over...or whatever you guys understand me right? yeah so um love can fuck you up...one of my personal theories...you fall in love lose it and then realize what you had was so great and then get sad thinking how could i have lost it??" By a writer from Oasis Magazine I used to have this thing called love. It was really the only thing that kept me going through all the hard times of my teenage life. I fell in love with my best friend, whom I always thought would end up my wife, hell I still do. We were going strong until I decided to enter the military. Little did I know, that that would ruin everything. I wish I would've known that. I would give up my career in the military for this girl. It's funny what love can do to you. Anyways, love decided to play a real trick on me before I left for the military. My best friend broke up with me and started dating another guy. Not only did I loose the only love of my life, I also lost a best friend that day. Love has beared it's ugliness upon the past 6 months of my life. It really sucks. I sometimes wish I would have never fallen in love in the first place, but I will tell you that all the pain I've had was worth the year of happiness love gave me. I don't know where I'm going with this. I just wish that the one I love someday realizes how much I care for her. I love her enough to let her make her own decisions about who she wants to be with. I just want her to be happy. I just hope she knows that I will always be there for her, through thick and thin, and that I will always provide her a shoulder to cry on. For those of you who have never fallen in love, let me just say this. Don't be discouraged by what I have said. Love is a great a beautiful thing, but you have to sacrifice a lot to make love work. If love is one-sided, it will fail. Both ends must "move mountains" to keep love alive. So enjoy the hugging, the kissing, and especially the cuddling (my favorite part) because the sorrows of love are what remind you how good love used to be. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
4:42 am	Fuck this place I honestly can say that I hate every aspect of my life. I am not happy, nor do I forsee happiness in the near future. My job sucks, my heart's broken, I'll be away from home, friends are few and far between, and I have nothing to look forward to anymore, no hope to hold on to. Life has pretty much abandonned me. So heres to the good days of laughing and smiling, because those days are pretty much shot to hell along with all my dreams and aspirations. Thank you everybody. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 24th, 2005
11:31 am	My job is so easy... Yeah so I'm suppossed to be working right now, but my boss told me to go home because there was nothing for me to do. I love my job. ;) So anyways, I haven't really done all too much as of late. I did go to church yesterday, which ended the night on a very strange and somewhat disheartening note. I ended up taking Jammi (my ex) with me to church and we ended up talking aboout some things later that night. We talked about how it's hard for her to be around me and not going out with me too, just like the way I feel. I explained the way I felt by saying, "It's for me not to grab hold of your hand at certain times. I'm just so used to holding it." We both have it hard without each other. Most of me says that I hope we end up together again someday, but I dunno if that will ever happen. I have a dilema I'll discuss after certain events happen tonight too. Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 20th, 2005
10:03 pm	So I guess things are ok?? So I hung out with my ex tonight, why I'm not sure. We ended up going ice skating. It wasn't as bad as I thought. Perhaps we can learn to remain friends even after what happened between us. I'm kinda glad about that. She has always been here for me, even before we were dating, so it's good to at least be on these terms. Not to mention, it's good just to have a friend plain and simple. Current Mood: relieved (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 19th, 2005
8:54 pm	I don't get it.... How is it that I can still be so unhappy? What is life lacking so much that I always have to be either an asshole to people, because I'm not happy, or just flat out depressed, not talking, suicidal?? I hope the Air Force doesn't find this, they might think I'm a little unstable. Well, I'm not. I guess I'm just a teen who doesn't know who he is or what he is doing. Outstanding. Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Friday, February 18th, 2005
7:50 pm	TECH SCHOOL IS OVER!! I am finally out of tech school and back home. I won't ever have to see anyone from that goddamn base again. Thank God. The only shitty part is that home really isn't much different. I really have nothing left here. I've pretty much lost or given up everything. Kinda blows. So tech school is over, I'm happy, but life goes on, will happiness?? Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
6:13 pm	Three days left.... So close, so close. Plane leaves Saturday bound for home. Good ol' Toledo...shit. Well, at least I'll be away from here. I get Monday off of work too, so I'm pretty stoked about that. (check spelling on "stoked") So anyways, I guess I'm going off base tonight in order to try to find the meaning of "fun" and maybe even "friendship". Can I get a hoorah for an exciting night at the mall?? Ah, the sarcasm. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
8:43 pm	4 Days Left!! Hoorah, only 4 days left here. I cannot wait. But perhaps I shouldn't be so excited considering the fact that I haven't really been paying attention in class, and I have to pass that test to leave. I'll put it off until tomorrow. I'm pretty good at that. Anyways, I gave blood today, all 3lbs. of it. Yipee!! I hate needles with a God-damn passion, let me tell you. Least it only took 7 mins. this time, last time it was 20 mins. So a bunch of my good friends graduated today. It sucks to see them go, especially Kessler and Cook. They were cool, and some of the only good lookin females here. But I guess thats life. Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 12th, 2005
11:24 pm	This is interesting... So I decided to try this online journal bullshit to see if it would break the monotoney of my normal, boring, military day. So far, I guess it is giving me something to do. Well I guess I should start with the basics. I'm pretty well happy today, taking into consideration the fact that I will be leaving this God-forsaken place known as technical school. Some of you are wondering what the hell that is. Well, "Tech School" as it's called is the military's idea of stealing candy from a baby. First, they break your ass completely down in basic training, which is no biggie. But then they decide to let you have your freedom back for the split second you have to actually take advantage of it. Then, they think of some bullshit reason to steal it all away from you again. I guess thats the military though. Anyways, where was I? Oh yea, I'll be out of this hell hole in less than a full week and back home where things suck just as bad, yipee!! Shit, I gotta go downstairs. Guess I'll post later. Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)